started from the love

It all started with an empty heart, looking for something beautiful. What can make this heart happy. Which in the end we met. Although so far we have been acquainted for more than 6 months. but now we have been dating for 1 month. We have celebrated our anniversary on 7 oct. This is the beginning of the story of love that we have made. Hoping all the past be a lesson for a better start. Now, he has love me and accept me as momon. Truly she's was the woman who would understand about me. Although we have not met but this feeling will first have to choose what path we must choose.

The decision was very quick for us to start, but this is all we have to consider the grounds of love. We chose this road is the best way. Everything has just happened. We also have mutual trust. sHe's always take care of me, making me always feel comfortable. But sometimes he has made me concerned in each of my evening. But I will always understand him. I can not lie and can not hurt him too. My angry just a moment, I always selfish control. Maybe because I love her so much, I always feel sad much of it. But I will always keep him and make him happy while I was there by her's side.

This is the way I love that I have chosen to happiness together. In this smile, there's only you who always decorate it. Now I'm sure it's time we should meet, time and place I have prepared for you. But I'm worried about all that we experience is different, because now we'll see you later, then quasi going to change. Indeed our hearts are in love, but we still need a physical approach to know each other further. But I'm sure it's not a problem for us. Because I have determined to make you happy and always smiling when I look at you.

Yogyakarta, where we meet later for the first time. For me this is not really experience that i has imagine. I really felt nervous when we meet later. My longing will always be in your heart. Here I will always think of you. You have become part of life.  

Really Missing you!

you are the one whose make me worried, thinking you every single night. it's to many things about you in my room. when I see in the corner I see your doll when I want going to kitchen I see your souvenirs that you has gave me before you go. when I through the day I must be past your former rooms. it's make feel your still there reading book and waiting for me. but now everything is change and I have to recognize that. I now you are not here again but your memories still here with me. it's make me thinking all about you and I am really missing you. at night I want to hugging you, kissing you and say good night. in the morning I am really sad, because when I wake up I can see you again but only your doll faithfully accompany me. no more spring roll in my table. no more call my name. no more sound knocked my door. no more care about me. but now let me missing you all day,because it's enough being your depute . I hope one day I can release nostalgic feelings with you not with somebody else... here I am missing you. "Bogosippo" <-------korean languange

deddy s
"don't egoism, just say to your couple that you missing her and showing that you missing her"

I love You. Did you know that?

we has enjoyed our love in paradise island when we are still together. everything what I feel inside it's all about you. really want to back to the past, spend all of my time with you. create a beautiful memories that we are can't forgot. now, it's just a dust. silent and quite, everyday. no body one invite me going to party anymore moreover hangout together. you are not easy to forget, but you are easy to remind me for your kindness and what you always do to me. yah, I know you might be think I am uncertain being your love, because there are still have much time that I have to do.

I do not know, what side of me that you like? I always do the best for you... keep you safe and care about you. also I get feedback to from you. I am so thank you for your kindness. did you know? I like you, it's mean I am fall in love with you far before we talk. after I know you enough it make me sure, surely to say I LOVE YOU. but when I remember it make me smile because before I say "SARANGHE" <--- korean language, I wrote some words in small paper because I am really nervous at the time. :) you are still apart of my life... I hope, it's just not a words. but I can proved it to you...

deddy.s
"believe anything you hope because hope it's only in your heart"

She's still LOVE Me?

this is not short time... after she go, everything is change and there is have a years that I must across without her. now I feeling shes just go yesterday but it's eighth month that I past. sometime I afraid what my friends says to me, and he said "it might be, your love enjoy a day with a new guy". although he says like that, I always believe what i hope with my love. so, I keep it until I can proved and showing to her what I appointment in the past. because I keep my word, everyday I always thinking about her... hmm, always imagine and play with her in avatar world. hah... I am get poison heart attack. to night i was try to call her three times but no answer. its 2 week i didn't hear her voice. I hope so shes sleeping now. but I always imagine her, where's she now? what they are doing now? and some question in my mind that I want to ask to her. some while its hurt me but I always be calm and positive thinking.

this is a LDR... (Long Distance Relationship) only some people success past away with they are love. I hope I can across this. first day after shes go is different with now. I am not longer meet in skype also if I not call her, shes never find me. I do not know what they want and what they think about me and about this relationship. I hope to much from her...

If I have finished my study, off course I will be there as soon as... because I have promise to you after graduation I will going there.

deddy s.
"Love is pain if you not know each other"